Stop Judging More Loving

                                              I found my true love                                         
                                                           
                                                                now listen!


                      I can finally write how I really feel.  It seems most church folk or so called 'religious' folk judge more based on what Ive done. I have a tattoo,(many more coming)  a nose ring and I moved in with my boyfriend. Im sorry for those Ive let down, I really am but Im not playing the 'sorry card' anymore My new saying is ' Stop Judging More Loving. ' I would say only 5 not even that know truly about my past and what hell ive been through. Ive only had 2 boyfriends, My Ex & Justin who Im going to marry in Oct, Im pretty excited about it, was it the best idea I've ever had? NO, I realize that I hurt a lot of people and they dont know why I did it, most had ideas because I got really hurt by my Ex so they think I just jumped in to fast and thought I was scared. I love Justin Ray Crowder with my whole heart. The way I moved in wasnt the best I just left on a wednesday and left my dad a note saying im gone, Dad if you read this Im sorry I hurt you and Im sorry I left you like that, I love you with everything You're the best daddy in the world, and I hope you forgive me for what I did to you and find it in your heart to accept Justin into the family and love him like you love me. Mom Im sorry I let you down I know I did, I love you with everything in me, You are such a great role model and Im proud to brag about you going to college and being such a beast on the deans list. I hope you can accept Justin into the family.  I love you so much. Joshua, you may never read this but know I love you , and Im sorry if I hurt you like I did I hope you can accept Justin as well. You're a great brother. I dont blame my family for being upset with me, I understand that. My chuch folks more judging comes from them then anybody I have ever seen, My parents raised me just right, I know the choices I made I have to answer for everything Ive done, Justin is such a great guy who treats me like a princess and how a woman should be treated he protects me like im the last piece of gold on the planet. Ones who have looked down upon me or say Im a bad influence im sorry you feel that way im still the Ashley Nicole Jenkins you knew before I moved in with him. It hurts I get know support for me being finally happy with someone and being happy in general. Im getting married in Oct and thats all ive ever wanted, the feeling of knowing that someone who truly loves me and looks past all my flaws and sees my heart and who I really am. Who loves me on my bad days and will always be there. Im happy, and all I wish is that my family, friends etc would just be happy even if you dont agree! IM SO FREAKIN HAPPY. You guys dont realize that, or what Ive been through, so this is so exciting for me, someone who finally loves me! :) Justin isnt the bad guy neither am I even though I understand how it can be me. All I ask is for some more love and support from everyone.
 


Date he asked me out. October 8, 2011
Date he asked me to marry him. December 15, 2011
Date we become a husband/wife. October 8, 2012

 This Love is OURS <3

   I love you Justin Ray Crowder <3