Im so done with Cancer.

I HATE CANCER,  I HATE CANCER,  I HATE CANCER,  I HATE CANCER!!!

Cancer, is a nasty nasty nasty disease and Im sick and tired of it,  after seeing 3 of the people I love most suffer and die from it, Ive had enough I always said I would do whatever it takes to help, heck even stop Cancer and find a cure. All things are Possible with GOD, right. 

I lost my Aunt Tweet to cancer 12-23-08, and it was the hardest thing Ive been through, and watching her suffer is what I hated most We were in the hospice house and she was talking and doing just fine and she says 'Hey ashley, hand me that teddy bear over there', so I did she gave it to me, and said ' I want you to have this' I literally felt my heart break inside because she knew and I knew, I still have that teddy bear and I look at it everyday, few days later I walked in there and I didnt realize how bad it was and I lost it, crying everywhere, and she couldnt talk, it was the end and I hated that thought, and I went to leave getting close to her, balling my eyes out, and the words 'I love you' slowly came out of my mouth and all of a sudden I hear 'I love you' back and I was shocked and stunned because she couldnt talk, and 'I love you' were our last words and after I got the call she passed, I had  a peace about it, and didnt really cry as much because my Pastor at my church prayed with her, and she came to know Christ so it made it 100x better knowing Ill see her again, and shes with her husband, who I miss dearly as well, I would say he was my fav, and I was super close to him. Aunt Tweet, I love you and I miss you tons, but I know your happy, I know you playing with all those puppies up there, Im sure sugar [my dog we bought from her]  is happy to see you to :)  theres not one day I go without thinking about you, Ill see one day, you and Uncle Duke, I love you both very much with all my heart <3

The 2nd life it took was my awesome Science teacher in High School, Mr. Kiriluk, that man stood up for anybody, he was one of my fav teachers and helped anybody he could, He was a smart man, he was one of the funniest guys I knew, and knowbody saw it even coming, it just hit like a hurricane, at first it wasnt that bad, and we prayed,  because prayer gos far, and it went away, nothing there, the Doctors couldnt find anything, I cant explain the excitment I got, heck even his family and friends, then a few months later hes on his death bed, Im just like what the heck youve got to be kidding me? I told my brother and we actually went to see him before he passed away the next day, I was preparing myself because I already have been through this with my Aunt, and everybody who truly knows me knows Im a very very emotional person, and cry at anything.. But it failed and I saw him there and it pretty much was death I was staring at once again, and I was furious, I told myself I was gonna do something, and as we were leaving I hugged him and said I loved him with tears flowing out of my eyes like Niagra falls, even though he didnt know,  and we left,  the next day,  He was with the awesome presence of Jesus, and I was crushed even though I knew it was coming I didnt wanna face it again, but once again I had a peace because I know hes with Jesus, Im sure hes up there building rockets and shooting them off :) and asking tons of questions hes always wanted to. Mr. Kiriluk, you left a huge impact on not only me, but everybody you knew, I miss you more and more everyday and as I pass your house I pray for your family. I love you, and I cant wait to see you again <3


The 3rd life it took was a beautiful lady named Jan P.  Jan, was a walking Jesus, she loved him more than anything, never missing a sunday or a wednesday night, always sitting up front with her husband Al, listening to the message being given, she was a true woman of God, and always helped helping people,  she would give you the shirt off her back and do anything for you, what I loved about Mrs. Jan, was her kind spirit, and willingness to do anything even if she was sick, I would walk in the church and she would always be sitting in the chair and she always would say 'Hey Miss Ashley, how are you? or 'You are such a beautiful young lady' and 'You have an awesome voice you keep singing for Jesus'  I miss that the most, I cant believe this happened and I believe in my whole heart this wasnt her time, I wasnt expecting this sweet lady to just get sideswiped with freaking Cancer, none of my family or friends, I hate it, Jan was in her 70's and he husband is as well, and you couldnt tell by looking at them, very healthy active people, and just bam cancer hits her, and I told everybody around me going to the hospice house I have prepared myself since Ive been through this 3 times, and go figure its the same Hospice house my Aunt and Science teacher passed away in. We walked into her room, and there she is, beautiful as ever, and I lost it, and I promised myself I wouldnt cry, but we all know that never works out like we would like it to. I was leaving and I actually wasnt gonna see her but Im glad I did, because I kinda knew this was it, I hugged her, and kissed her on her head and said 'I love you' and that was it. Few days later shes with Jesus, in her new body having the time of her life. Mrs. Jan, I love and I miss you, I will miss your kind sweet spirit every Sunday or hugging you, you are missed, but I will see you again I love you <3


My point being this, after seeing all 3 people I love suffer and die, Ive seriously have had enough, and Im gonna do something about it to raise money. I promise you this, Ive never cried so much in my life writing a blog, I miss you guys so much, I love you all, and Im gonna do something about this, In memory of you all, you guys have made a huge impact in my life, and Im not gonna stop until theres a cure! Ill see you one day, I love you <3



                                                  DREAM. LOVE. CURE.